1st of July 2019
While I am still getting over my post holidays blue. I finally sat down to get some quiet time and get some work done. Plug my mobile to my computer and this number came up. My mobile was brand new this New Year Day. So I am taking an average of 150 photos a day. Wow I am amazed.
At this time of the year I always have a strange self-induced renewal of faith for Singapore. May sound a little feeble to admit that my eyes get a little watery and something swells inside when I hear one of the NDP theme songs. There are so many things to be grateful for and it is where my family and friends are. Wonder how many of my country men felt the same way as me.
Was having dinner with a bunch of people from SEA last Saturday. All have some kind of roots back in Singapore but I know deep down I will be the only one who will declare that I am a Singaporean. Not that I had no choice but a truly proud one.
Being so far away from home now. I cannot help feeling a little lonely but I will be watching the NDP live broadcast tomorrow. And my renewal of faith will take place.
This year NDP theme song.
4pm Singapore time
With a light heart and spring in my steps, I embarked on my new adventure.
Have been feeling frustrated and indifference at work for a while. There is no point to go back and recounted the history. Especially when this one is negative, but if one wants to know about it do ask me directly. Be warn of the aggressive and emotional nature of the narrator.
The adventure ahead is being piece together at the moment. Do look out for more update on this space!
Haven’t been updating my space for the past year. Was rather shock when I was “forced” to migrate my space to wordpress yesterday. To be honest I was quite excited about it, as I was longing to change to another blogging platform for a while.
Finally I am here with all my past blogs in tact. Guess I am going be blogging actively once again.
Thanks to Daniel, I am finally the proud owner the latest IPhone 3GS. It took us 1 hour of queuing and 2.5 hours of waiting in order to get the phone. So far I am quite please with the function of the phone, my only qualms will be the single mindedness of the phone. Why cant it multi task and run programs in the background?
This morning something came clear while I was listening to my music on my phone. This all mighty song is Safe in a crazy world by Corrine May. Haven’t heard this song for a while or rather I haven’t been using my heart to listen to this song for a long while.
You keep me flying
You keep me smiling
You keep me safe in a crazy world
You understand me
Embrace my fragility
You keep me safe in a crazy world
And in your arms I find the strength to believe in me again
This song had been dedicated to one of my best friend. Or rather one for a long time whom I was “angry” with and I am not sure if we still are considered best friends. This amusing anger of mine was so profound that I was not even able to put them into words. I am trying my best just bear with me for this while.
Let start with something a little simpler…
I missed …
Those genuine and thoughts provoking conservations.
Challenges that we set ourselves up which probably made us who we are today.
Having someone who cooks far worse and does less housework then me.
At potluck the only 2 person who real contribution is sit on the sofa and wait for the dinner.
Best travel buddy who does the difficult part of the drive and never kill each other when we get lost.
Now come the difficult part.
Why was I angry?
I felt taken granted for but didn’t bother to voice it out back then. So indirectly I caused my own unhappiness…
I dislike his better half and probably due to some misunderstanding which lead me to decide that she was a hypocrite. You know that was the funny part as we were getting along quite well and I like her as a driven and independent woman and fellow runner. In my own opinion, we were too conscience with each other presence on one man.
I didn’t go and see the Niagara fall which I was so into going.
Was not part of his wedding preparation and was not one if his brothers.
I am going to ask for forgiveness and work out something for the future. Hopefully we can still be great pals.
Will be heading to Phuket this Saturday and will be taking part in the Marathon there on Sunday. The race will not be an easy one as marked with numerous elevation changes along the way. At this moment, I felt that I had not been preparing for this run despite of all the efforts that I had put in these few months. I had taken up twice weekly personal training aiming to improve my performance for this marathon. With the increased workout intensity, somehow my body had caught up with me these 2 weeks. I felt so tired and believe that my performance had dip drastically. Body recovery had come to a stand still. Need to review my current regime as soon as possible. But for now, I will take a break, carbo load and enjoy myself for the trip ahead.
No matter what, I will get my fat ass to that finishing line.
Last Friday, it was a day of farewells. Started with my office part time helper, his work had been terminated as the contract which he was employed under had started to scale down. In a way, I think it is pretty fateful that I ended up sitting next to him at work. He was my junior from Jurong Junior College and NTU which he will be starting school in 2 months time. Guess in my generation terms, he will be classified as a nerd in all aspects. But there are stuffs about him that is commendable; he is truthful and hard working. Anyway share some of my out dated tips about surviving in the university and even attempt to change his attitude towards life. Hope he will be able to do well especially socially in the university.
On my way to gym after work, I met one fellow colleague whom is working at the HR. Even though that we did not know which others’ name but there was this incident where I was waiting for transport and she was doing some mails distribution at the same place. I remember that unhappy look as she went on doing her chores. We chatted a little and she shared her issues with her current colleagues. It seems then that she is really unhappy and did try to do her best at work.
She informed me it was her last day at work and will be going to have a short break before starting work next month. On the way to town, manage to share some personal beliefs.
When doing any thing, the only person that you need to convince is oneself. Then in this way, other’s opinion does not matter and thus life will be much simpler. Also in most cases, there is no one formula that can please everyone. So why bother in the first place.
In order to be loved by others, one has to love oneself first and treat oneself well. It is perfectly fine to give own self a treat once in a while.
By the time I got off the train, I felt pretty grand sharing my thoughts. Although I hate farewells but it made my day then. Thanks guys for making a difference to my day. I sincerely wish them all the best in their future endeavors.
During the Labour Day long weekend, OT, Daniel, Shar and I went for a short trip to Malaysia, Cameron. I was in primary school when I last visited this place. All I could remember was the terrible time I had throwing up on the coach, misty playground and the cool fresh air. With much anticipation and a little apprehension of my usual prone to suffer from travel sickness. We headed for the highlands via coach leaving golden mile on the 30th night. I was rather impressed with my ability to sleep on the coach and only waking briefly at some points of the journey. Woke up about 6am and found myself at the foot of the highlands. Drifted back into sleep and found myself arriving at the first township when I decided to sit up and enjoy the scenery. The greenery plus the greeting of cool fresh air when we alighted, ensure me that I will like this place from the start of the trip.
We got to the Brichang town by 8am and had breakfast there before some tour agency tries to sell us some tour packages. As it was simply too early for our hotel check in, we went back to wander around Brichang town for the rest of the morning. The town was small and we covered it in no time. Had a lunch before heading back to check in to our apartment. We joined an Argo tour that brings us to various farms to appreciate the main economy of the area. The amount of crops, plants and flowers that we came across that afternoon was enormous. Ended the day with a steamboat dinner and a Ramil burger. The Ramil burger is really worth commenting, I never see anyone putting so much care into making a burger like this one. Thumbs up for him, even though was a long wait for the burger.
Got up really early the next morning for the sunrise, our personal guide was promptly waiting for us at the lobby at 6am. It was really misty and cold that morning. After half an hour of traveling on winding roads, we arrived at the peak. Promptly made our way to the watch tower, OT and I climb to the top of the tower. The chilly winds sweep pass us, it was really freezing on the top of the tower. We stand waiting for a while, lose track of time and feeling numb from the cold. There was no sign of the sun, took a quick peek at my watch. Think it show 7 plus, I knew we had missed the sunrise. Went back down the tower to join the others hiding from the cold, we missed the sunrise but we witness the clearing of the mist which reveal the beautiful surrounding. Later we visit the mossy forest and tea plantation, both in a way unique and new experience for me.
Got our guide to drop us off on the way, we visited bee farm, kea farm and markets. The road was very jam and we ended up walking the whole way back to Brichang town. It was a long walk and we all got quite tired after it. Got back for some rest in the afternoon and headed for a nice dinner at the smokehouse. The settling of the hotel cum restaurant was very Victorian it was like we had travel to England. I think the service and food can be improved but we still have a great time that evening.
This concludes our visit, we all had a good time and recharge for the challenges ahead. I believe I will be going to Cameron again soon.
Was planning for holiday in September 09 to Vietnam – Ho Chi Minh and Da Lat and was gathering travel buddies who might be interested to join me for the trip. The response had been fine so far and there were several feedback and recommendation. I was linked to some blogs from a fellow Singaporean who had just visited the Da Lat and was dismay with her entries. Guess we tend to be overly critical and calculative over trivial stuffs. Hence we forget to appreciate with is presented before us. Personally I do not enjoy haggling for the best price, I am happy as long as I felt that I had paid a fair price. Strongly believe that any holiday will be much more pleasant minus all these calculation and comparison. May my fellow travel buddies be able to understand that and appreciate me for who I am.
Considering to expand the trip to include my solo experience of the Mekong river and beyond. Let see how things turn out then. Anyone interested please feel free contact me.
To be or not to be is still an unknown now. As far as I am concerned, if one is equipped with the drive and requirement there is no harm in giving a go. After all, we will only live once and time is a factor that can never be recovered.
I reflected on how much I dread the regretful feelings while I put things on hold and procrastinate. Things that seem unimportant at this moment but it will return to haunt for a long time to come. Of course, I have my fair share of regrets, magnitude unperceived from my positive outlook. Nevertheless, what really matters is how one recovers and learns from them. The future is what we live for isn’t it?
My dear friend had gotten very upset regarding this issue over the weekend. It hurts to see the sorrowful state that she had gotten herself into. There is so much I will like to say but how to tell her that life is full of difficulties and this is just the beginning. She will have to face this on her own and recover from it. With the love and support from all the around her, I know her recovery will be not far away.
Inquisitive Me 